Monday, March 2, 2009

Anxiety Plus

K so here is the update on what has been happening with me. I have been to the doctor numerous times to find out what is wrong with me. It turns out that I am having anxiety problems. Don't ask me where they came from. I know that I worry about a lot of things, but lately I have not been worried about anything....at least that is what I thought. I will be sitting down relaxing, and all the sudden I will start to freak out. I don't know where it is coming from. I have been trying to do stuff to help calm me down but I have not found anything that really helps me yet. So for now, I am on some medicine to help calm me down. Prozac for more of an everyday medicine, and Lorazapam for when I have really bad episodes and can't get anything else to calm me down. Hopefully I will be able to get something figured out and get this fixed. I don't want to have this hanging over my head all the time. It is not a good feeling to be freaking out about something and there is nothing I can do about it. And people are telling me to calm down. Trust me if I could make this go away I would. This is not something that I want to deal with. I will let you know if anything new happens.
As far as Jonah and I go, things are going well. We are taking our sweet time getting everything unpacked. Mostly we just need to hang our decorations up. We are a pretty boring couple. We sit at home and watch tv or play on the computer. There is really not much else to do. I am excited that it is starting to warm up. I am sure that we will be more up for taking Reign for long walks if the weather keeps getting better.
I was thinking last night about all that is going on in the world, and I couldn't help but be so grateful that Jonah and I have been as fortunate as we have been. We have a nice home, food on the table, and are able to pay for the things that we need to. This is a hard time for many people. I only wish that we were in a better situation only so that we could help out our friends and family that are having a hard time right now. But we are grateful that we have what we do and that we are so blessed. We want you to know that we love you all and we are very grateful to have you in our lives.

5 comments:

Tammy said...

Sorry your having medical problems. It can't be easy. We too are boring people. That's about all Craig and I do and we have three kids. Craig lately has done nothing but work so at least he get's out of the house while the kids and I stay at home bored most of the time. Enjoy the silence while it lasts!

Anonymous said...

too bad so sad! hope all goes well for you.

Tammy said...

So Craig wanted to give you an anecdote for your anxiety. He says that the bedroom is the best place to get over that kind of stuff. I wouldn't know becuase I don't have that problem but he seems to think that it fixes everything(HAH). So try that. :oP

Tammy said...

We take cash :oP j/k

Rach said...

Are you slowly starting to get panic disorder? Do you freak out about when your going to freak out?